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not sure if i should be feeling this way... it's been bugging me for the whole day now.

if i were to do it, be a part of it i should be happy i should do it with all my heart, but yet, i feel like i am not really a part of it.

Lord, i pray that i won't feel this way, but Lord, i can't help but wonder if i am really appreciated.


on the other hand, i feel as if things are all creeping up towards me. i thought i could get away from everything for a bit, but i guess no matter what i still have to take up some responsibilities.

i'm not sure if i am fully prepared to go to new mexico. i am excited. i want a change. but why do i feel so confused now? why do i feel this way Lord?