Classes?

Before Pursuit part II comes out, (which i really dont know when!), FYI, classes has begin... SO NOT COOL! aihh... :(

Pursuit...

And so it is, Ive finally decided to update my blog a lil after much thinking... hehe

Its been a few days since i got back form Camp Castaway aka (Pursuit) at Detroit Lakes, MN. It was a 2 and a hlaf hour drive away from Bemidji... James was an angel to take Cassie, Grace and myself to the place (he actually had to drive up bout 45 mins to get to Bemidji then take off to go to Detroit Lakes again.. hehe) but thanx to him i learnt a lot about the wild life and farms here in US. First of all, deers here in Bemidji run out in the middle of the highway and its the vehicle which has to stop for the deer to pass... and, if ure lucky enough, a deer might jus jump out of no where and smash you right in fornt of your windshield.. isnt that scary or wat? can kill someone by doing that apparently...

Next, i saw a dead porcupine on the road on the way... dat was jus amazing... didnt manage to take a picture... but yea.. my 1st time seeing a real porcupine in the flesh... not on tv... hehe... it was all pointy and cute... but dead.. :(

I learnt that cows need to be milked twice everyday, its like a must if not the cow will die.. there are 2 types of cows.. the dairy type and the steak type... d dairy one is obviously the black and white ones, while the others are for meat usage kinda thing... i was most amazed by the milking thingy though... that was an interesting fact for me cause i really dodnt know it worked that way...

anyway, the camp was an awesome one... God worked in many ways in the camp... i dun even noe how to start...

basically, we all break up into different sections that each of us has signed up for... i personally signed up for the hard sayings of Jesus. that was a track which really caught my attention as i always had various struggles regarding different verses in the B.I.B.L.E.

then we had the URBANA (a whole US wide youth conference thingy end of this year) team come over for praise and worship sessions... they were just an awesome bunch! and they were diversed alright! malaysia, US, africa, i dun remember all.. but it was just amazing... we sang our hearts out and worshipped the Lord God Almighty! Praise the Lord for that!

we had tons of prayer sessions too... im actually glad that this was a prayer moving camp... Im sure God heard our prayers and He will answer em in no time... and thru prayer one gets to know more and draw closer to Him and to frens around you.

for now... that's bout it... this is just part1, more to come soon... too tired to type on now... adios! :)

Dream on...

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.

I want to know what you ache for,

and if you dare dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.

I want to know if you will risk looking the fool for love,

for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.

I want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow,

if you have been opened up by life's betrayals

or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own,

if you can dance with wildness

and let ecstacy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes

without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic,

or to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true.

I want to know if you can betray another to be true to yourself;

if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.

I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not a pretty day,

and if you can source your life from God's presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,

and stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver light of a full moon,

"Yes!" It doesn't interest me to know where you live

or how much money you have.

I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair,

weary and bruised to the bone,

and do what needs to be done for the children.

It doesn't matter who you are, or how you came to be here.

I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire

with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.

I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself,

and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

~ Oriah Mountain Dreamer (A Native American Elder) ~

birthday surprise/nap nightmares...

okay...

so we had a surprise party for yi my housemate here on Sunday midnight, which means its 14th (monday)... hahaa... tooo many 'holes' in the whole process but she didnt really figure... so thank God it was pretty successful....

had friends come over... they were an awesome and cooperative bunch...

d house is a mess and i aint got any pics yet... but yea... fren is gonna upload her video to youtube, when that happens u'll get to see it... *grinz*

anyw, will be leaving mrow morn (monday) at 8 to Detroit Lakes for an intervarsity christian fellowship camp... really cant wait... not only is this a break from working... i get to go stronger with Him each day... and meet new people and this year apparently there is gonna be some international cultural thingy too... now how fun can that get eh?

well its pretty late now... i really should go get some sleep but the ice cream cake (from DQ-blizzard ice cream cake) is kicking into me... im still wide awake now... brrrrr...

will be back on friday... and work starts immediately after that...

and lately... the weirdest thing has been happening to me... i dream of WEIRD freaky dreams during NAP time..... NAP TIME!! how in d world does dat happen... in 45 mins of nap, i can come out with the wildest things in my dream... stuff growing out of my frens' arm, weird swimming awards and songs which have a funky tune... haaaha... something is wrong with me perhaps... my 'unconcsious' as what Freud says? hahaha (fat chance)

thats it for now.. i needa sleep... hahaa... ciao peeps... ;p

time blows away out tears...

i guess it's about me...
i needa be able to look at things with a wider perspective...
it's funny... i always tell others to put their feet into the other persons' shoe...
but yet i doubt i did that...
i should look at things simpler...
with an open mind and not to be so rigid...

going through stuff like this aint easy, but it definitely helps to strengthen my walk with Him...


For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?
Matthew 7:2-4

random pics.... have fun scratchin i hope!

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if i could be a part of me again...

If i could be a part of me once again...
weird as it is... i seem to be drifting apart...
apart... away... far far away...
from... life... people... myself?

i aint really sure what am going through right now... but i know somethings different...
maybe it's just time i change and get on with my life...
is this what we call getting older and keeping to oneself more?
or is it something else?

I dunno... :(

Lately

Lately, I have had the strangest feeling
With no vivid reason here to find
Yet the thought of losing you’s been hanging’
round my mind

Far more frequently you’re wearing perfume
With you say no special place to go
But when I ask will you be coming back soon
You don’t know, never know

Well, I’m a man of many wishes
Hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel my eyes won’t let me hide
cause they always start to cry
cause this time could mean goodbye

Lately I’ve been staring in the mirror
Very slowly picking me apart
Trying to tell myself I have no reason
With your heart

Just the other night while you were sleeping
I vaguely heard you whisper someone’s name
But when I ask you of the thoughts your keeping
You just say nothing’s changed

Well, I’m a man of many wishes
I hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel my eyes won’t let me hide
cause they always start to cry
cause this time could mean goodbye, goodbye

Oh, I’m a man of many wishes
I hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel my eyes won’t let me hide
cause they always start to cry
cause this time could mean goodbye

Stevie Wonder


p.s. I will try to put d song up when i figure out how to... :p awesome song...

getting ready?

first day of job on the go... dun really needa prepare anything....

anyw... something i read...

what is the truth?
In one cataclysmic moment, millions around the globe dissappear.
Vehicles, suddenly unmanned, careen out of control. People are terror stricken as loved ones vanish before their eyes.
In the midst of such global chaos, what is the truth? What ate the darkest days going to be like?

Seriously, i cannot imagine it... currently reading LEFT BEHIND by Tim LaHaye & Jerry B. Jenkins... a lil late.. but got it from church's library... It's weird, ya know.... the feeling you get when rapture happens. I seem to feel a tinge of scared... yet i know, i should not feel that way...

And i found out an interesting fact, (well, interesting for me at least)... not everyone can hear the trumpet call when it is rapture... only believers.... all along i thought everyone would be able to hear it...

thanx to VENDETTA! :p

Well, thanx to mr V, ive got my blog all set and ready to go... :p a big hug to you for all uve done and beared with my complains.... hehehe.... ure a life saver!!

anyw, today was a long day... was suppose to go to the boys and girls club but i didnt make it... partly because my fren didnt go with me... and i had other things to do as well... which im glad im done with it...

worship practice was great... had an awesome time singing... and praising Him... :p so dat was kinda cool

oh btw, an amazing thing happened in Bible study last nite... kenny went for Bible study... well i guess after much persuasion from the others, he tried it out... which im glad he did, and yea... he even went for it today...

im gonna start work mrow at walli's.... dishroom it is... well, the job may suck, but its earning income no matter what, and i really appreciate it... so yea... im praying hard that Tony (the manager) would lemme continue working thru out d semester as well...

*can't believe im listening to jay's song thru d speaker of mr V's* hahaha...

new bloggie! :P

here goes nothing... under the HUGE pressure of all my friends having blogs where there is a chatbox... im jus super tempted to start one too... hehehe...

anyw, this here will be a continuation from my old frenster blog... and yea... we'll see how this one works...

for now... im onto a new anime thanx to monkey aka louis aka seng chee!! haha... yakitate!! japan is awesome... very interesting anime with bread bread BREAD!! ehhehehe... awesomeness!!

adios for now... :p