half half...

wow... its been a long day for me today...(well, maybe not that long but long enough for me if i have to say...)

was practically 'fishing' in statistics today... darnit i dun understand a thing he was yapping about... and i was on the verge of losing my concentration... then not to forget there was dance exam next at 11am... i was afraid of something... but i really thank God it didnt happen, so in a way i was relieved... phewww.... BUTTTTT to my amazement.. something else came along...something unexpected, something im not really looking forward to... i hope it wont be too dreadful or whatever....

went home only to realize i didnt have my set of keys and i had to spend my time in the library... the library is not really the place i wanna be... or dat i like to be at... but i did some research found some articles which ive yet to read... hehe...

worship practice tonight was awesome.. somehow when we had that session of praise and worship before the actual practice, it felt good to be in His presence once again... i am really looking forward to mrow thursday night fellowship...

and right now as im typing this... i just realized dat... i made someone angry.. kinda offended that friend of mine without even realizing it... however, i dun really understand where i did wrong... cus i already seldom talk to that person... but i guess we are both from rather different worlds... and maybe i really did upset that person without knowing i did it... im a lil upset now...

jaded

lately ive been feeling a lil jaded...
not too sure why... relatinship with God is not as strong as it was... guess its mostly my fault.. things clouding my mind... and stuff are catchin up after me...

i know its pretty dumb to ask this question... but can God hear me? are You there Lord? i feel void... i feel lost, i feel trapped and maybe even crushed at times...

oh great God, be small enough to hear me now... dat is my prayer... Lord, help me turn back to You... i dun want to live a life when You're not there...

whatever that is hindering me from You, Lord may You please work Your wonders...

im writing this here as a promise to myself... that i may keep myself accountable... thank You Lord...

tagged!

The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.


I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe , free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I'm currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer. (a little of both)
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it. (i actually hate spongebob...)
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time. (pat, i totally agree with you on this!)
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at a McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thingy !!!
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. (partial true)
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie...

not too bad eh? haha...

i tag: monkey, shawn, glo, ernchee and rachel puan! DO IT!

and so it is...

and so it is... one week has gone by again...

worked the hell outta my life this week... since thursday... my legs has been aching till now... stood all d way from thursday mornin 10 am till nite 10pm... its jus been a long day of work, cycling, stairs, work again, guitar'ing...
then friday comes with MORE work... 10 am once again, till 1 pm then exams... and work again, some cycling done, grocery shopping, badminton and exercise machines...
all this add together=broken leg... strained arm muscles... there u go... ! yay!

i dunno if i should be happy or complaining about having too much work to do... i'll choose to go with the positive side... more MONEY! yipppeee... hehe...

gonna go to itasca state park mrow... crossing the so-called mississipi river... so now i can tell everyone ive crossed the river AGAIN! hehee...(but another day of standing and walking...not cool...)

i still am in a diverged road... what should i do? an internship or just go for my OPT? im so lost... help...

Every me every you - Placebo

Sucker love is heaven sent

You pucker up, our passion's spent

My hearts a tart, your body's rent

My body's broken, yours is spent

Carve your name into my arm

Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed

'Cause there's nothing else to do

Every me and every you

Sucker love, a box I choose

No other box I choose to use

Another love I would abuse

No circumstances could excuse

In the shape of things to come.

Too much poison come undone

'Cause there's nothing else to do

Every me and every you

Every me and every you

Every me, me

Sucker love is known to swing

Prone to cling and waste these things

Pucker up for heavens sake

There's never been so much at stake

I serve my head up on a plate

It's only comfort, calling late

'Cause there's nothing else to do

Every me and every you

Every me and every you

Every me, me

Every me and every you,

Every me, me

Like the naked leads the blind

I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind

Sucker love I always find

Someone to bruise and leave behind

All alone in space and time

There's nothing here but what here's mine

Something borrowed, something blue

Every me and every you

Every me and every you

Every me, me

life...

okay, so i DID promise sorta kinda to update the stuff bout Pursuit II... which i dun really have the mood to do so now... (or will i ever?)

its frigging 2.20am here now and im not asleep... got some stuff to do... and was chatting with fangie jie earlier on about what to do after my degree...got me pondering... what SHOULD i do? i needa start making sure i know where im heading right after this cus there are tons of stuff to consider (e.g. GRE, OPT, internship) ooo i wished i need not think about it... FAT CHANCE!

anyw, ive gotta focus on some research thingy that my group is doing... we're focusing on anti intellectualism and perfectionism... so the hypothesis is simple... (if im gettin this right), the more self-oriented perfectionist has a higher anti intellectual scores compared to those from a socially prescribed perfectionist...

2 types of perfectionist covered here, self oriented are those people who are intrinsically motivated and they push themselves to do stuff kinda thing... where else the socially prescribed perfectionist is perfectionism due to the environment matters...extrinsically motivated...

how true is this, no one knows... dats y we are here to find out...

dance classes was awesome... i enjoyed it although i think my left arm muscle is aching a little due to the fact whre all d guys are super tall... so my arm is arched in a weird way... *rolling eyes*... im surprised at how much i pretty much enjoy social dance... not as bad as i thought it was... hehehe...

well for now, i need to think of a model for our wonderful concept about the whole anti intellectualism thingy...

oh someone pls pray that the marks on my hand will go away and that no more will come out.. cus occasionally it still itches me... (the bug thingy... darn!)

adios...

Be Small Enough - Nicole Nordeman

Oh, Great God, be small enough to hear me now.

There were times when I was crying from the dark of Daniel's den;

And I have asked you once or twice if You would part the sea again.

But tonight I do not need a fiery pillar in the sky.

Just want to know you're gonna hold me if I start to cry.

Oh great God, be small enough to hear me now.

Oh great God, be close enough to feel You now.

There have been moments when I could not face Goliath on my own.

And how could I forget we've march around our share of Jerichos.

But I will not be setting out a fleece for You tonight.

Just want to know that everything will be alright.

Oh, great God, be close enough to feel You now.

All praise and all the honor be;

To the God of ancient mysteries.

Whose every sign and wonder turn the pages of our history.

But tonight my heart is heavy,

And I cannot keep from whispering this prayer.

Are You there? And I know You could leave writing on the wall that's just for me.

Or send wisdom while I'm sleeping, like in Solomon's sweet dreams.

But I don't need the strength of Samson or a chariot in the end...

Just Want to know that You still know how many hairs are on my head.

Oh, great God, be small enough to hear me now.

Be small enough Oh Lord... help me...