Just Wondering...

Wondering what am I doing here?
Wondering if this is the right thing for me?
Wondering if I can believe in God and in myself?
Wondering what this life has to offer?
Wondering if there is an easy way out?
Wondering if I will survive?
Wondering where you are as I'm typing this?
Wondering if you hear me when I cry?
Wondering if you are by my side just as you promised?
Wondering if I'm clapping by myself?
Wondering if I will ever find you?
Wondering why I wonder?
Wondering if this is all to life?
Wondering why the sky is blue?
Wondering why I love the wind in my face?
Wondering why I'm sitting here drinking chai?
Wondering why I'm thinking about you?
Wondering why the clouds are so pretty high up in the sky?
Wondering why the sun shines ever so brightly?
Wondering why the flame flickers on the candle?
Wondering why the smell of the candle fills my room?
Wondering why everyone says you'll be okay when they don't even know?
Wondering why there is no one around me when there are so many people around me?
Wondering if I made a mistake?

心好痛。。。为什么会变成这个样子？

randomness

should probably update this a little.. haha

okay, im back in US, fyi...

been at meetings and orientations for the most of the 2 weeks i was back... *sighs*

got my own car! it's great, cause now i need not rely on others...

im starting to teach at elementary school on Tuesday! very anxious, but very excited... more anxious than excited... oh no, i might get a panic attack!! yikes!

gonna go in for more meetings mrow at the school, and class decoration... not even close to finish and most of the other teachers are done... thanks to me not being able to go to the school earlier since i had no car...

olympics opening was awesome! :) loved the part where that gymnast guy from china lit the torch... FAB!

met a couple of new friends, all from China... brought one of em around and helped him get set up with bank accounts and random stuff like that... made me miss the good ole IVCF days when i used to do that with International students... IF ONLY...

okay, supposedly suppose to come out with some lesson plans and rules for the class.. but im sitting here doing this instead... haha...

adios!